Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
woke up
Bi,
I got up so early today. I went to bed at 2am last night, but still woke up at 8am this morning. Do you know why? Thats because I was thinking about you in my dream and I was so unhappy that I got up. I think I had a dream that I saw your photos with your gf and I was so upset.
I always try to convince myself that I know even you don't love me anymore, I know you would never treat anyone better than me. But is that enough?? While packing all the stuff, I realize there are so many things with your shadow in them. Soon I will be gone again and I will miss out this chance of seeing you again.
Vi
I got up so early today. I went to bed at 2am last night, but still woke up at 8am this morning. Do you know why? Thats because I was thinking about you in my dream and I was so unhappy that I got up. I think I had a dream that I saw your photos with your gf and I was so upset.
I always try to convince myself that I know even you don't love me anymore, I know you would never treat anyone better than me. But is that enough?? While packing all the stuff, I realize there are so many things with your shadow in them. Soon I will be gone again and I will miss out this chance of seeing you again.
Vi
Monday, October 6, 2008
Today
Today did a lot of things, one of the thing that I need to do is go to Crystique to ask them if I can get that ring back. The answer is no, I can't even order it. Feel disappointed and asked myself why I was so careless that lost that ring, I love it so much and it's something that I can't get back. I remeber they said that's the only one when I got it. The person I can't keep, even a ring I can't as well......
Seeing my bro, I am so envy. Well, maybe cuz seeing him I can see myself there. Happy little couple. His gf is staying over almost everyday. They eat together and got up to work together. It just remind me of 4 years ago. It's actually very simple life, but I didn't know how good and happy it was. Now I realize that it's just something that I really want. Oh well, a sick person like me not deserve to have that anyways.
Seeing my bro, I am so envy. Well, maybe cuz seeing him I can see myself there. Happy little couple. His gf is staying over almost everyday. They eat together and got up to work together. It just remind me of 4 years ago. It's actually very simple life, but I didn't know how good and happy it was. Now I realize that it's just something that I really want. Oh well, a sick person like me not deserve to have that anyways.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Everything
Everything in Vancouver remind me of you. My appartment's lobby, Joey's, Downtown, HSBC, Burnaby, Save-on-food, Starbucks....even purfumes, my tops, my bed......
I laugh to myself...what am I thinking??? I always hoping to find someone..and that person was beside me..........
I laugh to myself...what am I thinking??? I always hoping to find someone..and that person was beside me..........
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Living in memories
Finally finished my Las Vegas trip. We stayed for 4 days 3 nights, but it was not as fun as I expected it would be. Many places there reminded me of you and I asked myself is that the reason I went there again???
When I see the O show and the celling at Bellagio, then I think of was there the reason that you went there again after we broke up???
I am suprise that I do still think of you sometimes, but I keep on telling myself that past is past and when I learned what I have missed and the time that we had together, I know everything is too late. But I understand if my eye never have problem, I never lost everything that I have, I won't know what I got in my life. I do feel thankful that you have loved me. I know some people have never been loved and never meet a guy like you. I do feel luckily that I have met you and you taught me a lot.
When I was in vegas, I noticed that I changed a lot. Remeber that I used to be scare of height so much that I won't go any close to the window at Stratospere? Now I can. I used to think that I can't plan a trip and this trip show that I do able to plan a trip. I finally had a chance to watch the O show and the TI show......without you......it's so different......
When I see the O show and the celling at Bellagio, then I think of was there the reason that you went there again after we broke up???
I am suprise that I do still think of you sometimes, but I keep on telling myself that past is past and when I learned what I have missed and the time that we had together, I know everything is too late. But I understand if my eye never have problem, I never lost everything that I have, I won't know what I got in my life. I do feel thankful that you have loved me. I know some people have never been loved and never meet a guy like you. I do feel luckily that I have met you and you taught me a lot.
When I was in vegas, I noticed that I changed a lot. Remeber that I used to be scare of height so much that I won't go any close to the window at Stratospere? Now I can. I used to think that I can't plan a trip and this trip show that I do able to plan a trip. I finally had a chance to watch the O show and the TI show......without you......it's so different......
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
What is the definition of “女朋友”？ - Elaine
到底，有沒有人可以告訴我 —— What is the definition of “女朋友”？
作為別人的女友 / 拍散拖食散餐的女人 / 只談情不做愛的女人 / 熱愛dating的女人，或者，沒戀愛沒同任何人Date的女人，甚至同樣對這問題覺得非常confused的女人，我們不如靜一靜，用5秒鐘的時間嘗試將答案找出來。
「5… 4… 3… 2… 1」。
於我來說，「女朋友」這三個字是一種名份。甚麼都是假的，他對你再好再體貼都假，當你得到他自己，他身邊的朋友及他的家人的認同，才是名正言順的女朋友。就算他每天致電給你，關心你的生活，每隔數天和你共晉晚餐，拖過、錫過、攬過、瞓過，又如何？他不肯承認，你就不是他的女朋友，永遠都不是。
一開始，若他沒有將你界定為possible girlfriend類別，而你卻一廂情願墮入愛河，你的下場只可以只可能成為他的sex partner或後備情人(永遠的後備，即使他single and available)。曾經，有個男人跟我說過這樣的一番話：「我根本對你同對女朋友一樣，只係我唔想俾女朋友呢個名份嘅嘢縛住我，我唔想呀」。喂！我也不想沒有「女朋友」這個名份傍身呀，我根本都好鍾意你㗎，我可以點喎？
唯有走囉，唉。
作為別人的女友 / 拍散拖食散餐的女人 / 只談情不做愛的女人 / 熱愛dating的女人，或者，沒戀愛沒同任何人Date的女人，甚至同樣對這問題覺得非常confused的女人，我們不如靜一靜，用5秒鐘的時間嘗試將答案找出來。
「5… 4… 3… 2… 1」。
於我來說，「女朋友」這三個字是一種名份。甚麼都是假的，他對你再好再體貼都假，當你得到他自己，他身邊的朋友及他的家人的認同，才是名正言順的女朋友。就算他每天致電給你，關心你的生活，每隔數天和你共晉晚餐，拖過、錫過、攬過、瞓過，又如何？他不肯承認，你就不是他的女朋友，永遠都不是。
一開始，若他沒有將你界定為possible girlfriend類別，而你卻一廂情願墮入愛河，你的下場只可以只可能成為他的sex partner或後備情人(永遠的後備，即使他single and available)。曾經，有個男人跟我說過這樣的一番話：「我根本對你同對女朋友一樣，只係我唔想俾女朋友呢個名份嘅嘢縛住我，我唔想呀」。喂！我也不想沒有「女朋友」這個名份傍身呀，我根本都好鍾意你㗎，我可以點喎？
唯有走囉，唉。
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