2010 = new vivian lee
everything deleted and will packed up everything
"may my faith light my way"
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
woke up early
After Birthdays, Christmas, Boxing day...here I am woke up so early. Thinking back or what I did in the past few days i realize that I did some mistakes and changed. But the only good thing is that I know I miss you less and less cuz I know I have to move on. Maybe my frd was right that because of you i miss out the people that treat me so well like you, but actually there is no regret. I know many people are treating me so well that I have nothing to complaint about. The only thing i should worry about now should be school.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Birthday again
It's my birthday again...
I think I learned a lot this year, after I back to vancouver I put down more and let go more and understand more. I will live bravily and happily. I wish you will do the same =)
vi
I think I learned a lot this year, after I back to vancouver I put down more and let go more and understand more. I will live bravily and happily. I wish you will do the same =)
vi
Monday, December 14, 2009
Saturday, December 12, 2009
不是最愛 - Elaine
不是最愛
每次聽到有人講，佢嘅前度係佢嘅一生最愛，我都會擰擰頭，冇辦法表示認同。
未到死嘅一刻，我哋點樣肯定嗰個人就係最愛？
可能瞓醒一覺，就會發現自己唔係真係咁愛呢個人，又或者，第二日你會遇上另一個令你心動嘅人。
無論幾愛，最終都會變會淡會輕，往事始終都會如煙。
我情願直認自私自利，最愛嘅係我自己。
最近，我有個朋友準備搬返嚟香港住，我哋喺msn交換近況，我循例問佢返香港做咩工丫，搵咗地方住未丫，佢又問吓我身體情況點呀，返工忙唔忙呀… …
佢又提到會喺星期六早機返到香港，我就客氣一番話「幾好喎，你要搬咁多嘢返香港，weekend嘅話，屋企人可以嚟幫你手拎嘢。」
佢就答我：「我仲記得嗰日係你嘅生日。」
我望住電腦嘅screen，唔知講咩好，最後，冇講再見就offline。
我唔係詞窮，而係嗰刻，忽然間想起，原來自己根本唔記得佢幾時生日，甚至，連佢嘅姓氏都記唔起。
我記得曾經同呢個人相愛又分開，我寫過一封又一封嘅情信俾佢，佢曾經送過戒指俾我。
仲有一啲小片段，例如我哋一齊睇過日出，佢煮飯我洗碗，手拖手散步，佢等我放工等到唔耐煩發脾氣，我唔高興佢時時話我幼稚… …
同所有嘅情侶一樣，關係經過高低起伏最後分開，做嘅嘢唔算特別，亦有時溫馨。
但竟然，我連佢嘅姓氏都唔記得。
明明呢個人，我曾經好愛好愛，為佢喊咗好耐好耐。
I beleive one day I will forget your birthday, your phone number and everything about you.
每次聽到有人講，佢嘅前度係佢嘅一生最愛，我都會擰擰頭，冇辦法表示認同。
未到死嘅一刻，我哋點樣肯定嗰個人就係最愛？
可能瞓醒一覺，就會發現自己唔係真係咁愛呢個人，又或者，第二日你會遇上另一個令你心動嘅人。
無論幾愛，最終都會變會淡會輕，往事始終都會如煙。
我情願直認自私自利，最愛嘅係我自己。
最近，我有個朋友準備搬返嚟香港住，我哋喺msn交換近況，我循例問佢返香港做咩工丫，搵咗地方住未丫，佢又問吓我身體情況點呀，返工忙唔忙呀… …
佢又提到會喺星期六早機返到香港，我就客氣一番話「幾好喎，你要搬咁多嘢返香港，weekend嘅話，屋企人可以嚟幫你手拎嘢。」
佢就答我：「我仲記得嗰日係你嘅生日。」
我望住電腦嘅screen，唔知講咩好，最後，冇講再見就offline。
我唔係詞窮，而係嗰刻，忽然間想起，原來自己根本唔記得佢幾時生日，甚至，連佢嘅姓氏都記唔起。
我記得曾經同呢個人相愛又分開，我寫過一封又一封嘅情信俾佢，佢曾經送過戒指俾我。
仲有一啲小片段，例如我哋一齊睇過日出，佢煮飯我洗碗，手拖手散步，佢等我放工等到唔耐煩發脾氣，我唔高興佢時時話我幼稚… …
同所有嘅情侶一樣，關係經過高低起伏最後分開，做嘅嘢唔算特別，亦有時溫馨。
但竟然，我連佢嘅姓氏都唔記得。
明明呢個人，我曾經好愛好愛，為佢喊咗好耐好耐。
I beleive one day I will forget your birthday, your phone number and everything about you.
cellphone
My cellphone was not working and I brought it to get fix. Then that person just delete everything from my cellphone and upgrade my cellphone.
I am so sad now...well..it's a pity ...all the sms I send in SH, in Taiwan, in Cebu, in Hk, in van are all gone. Actually these days a few things happened and I started to think memories fade. And he is further and further away from me.
Now my phone has no more msg to him, only some photos left. More things about him are gone. Even the mickey cellphone assessorie is broken and discountious in the store.
The worst part is the doctor's office call and I have to get back for the report. Report = bad news. I am so worry. Hope everything would be fine.
I am so sad now...well..it's a pity ...all the sms I send in SH, in Taiwan, in Cebu, in Hk, in van are all gone. Actually these days a few things happened and I started to think memories fade. And he is further and further away from me.
Now my phone has no more msg to him, only some photos left. More things about him are gone. Even the mickey cellphone assessorie is broken and discountious in the store.
The worst part is the doctor's office call and I have to get back for the report. Report = bad news. I am so worry. Hope everything would be fine.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
結束
一直堅信，轉換角度能淡化一些事，或美化一些事，如此，就能不流淚。
比如，錯過了一些事物，我會說：「還有更好的等著我！」；落雨忙記帶傘，我會說：[落得好！我正想沖個涼]
擁有，並不會令人哭泣。只有等到失去時．．．到我們哭泣，意識到重要，已是失去時．．．
愛情如是，友情如是，親情如是，空氣如是，生命如是．．．
比如，錯過了一些事物，我會說：「還有更好的等著我！」；落雨忙記帶傘，我會說：[落得好！我正想沖個涼]
擁有，並不會令人哭泣。只有等到失去時．．．到我們哭泣，意識到重要，已是失去時．．．
愛情如是，友情如是，親情如是，空氣如是，生命如是．．．
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Lost
I feel lost again in life. I don't know what I am doing, what I really want, who am I...I feel so lost. The only thing i know is I miss you, but I start to don't even know if I should miss you.
Who can help me? Who can save me?
You know sometimes I would hope something terrible happen to me, so I will see you again. I know that's really stupid. I don't know why when I am weak I always think of you, but at the same time I know the you I miss do not exist anymore. I don't know how long I will struggle with it. I know if anyone know I am like this, they would laugh. Who would beleive that I am actually so stupid and so weak? Sometimes I really want to thanks you for teaching me to be so strong, I think I am stronger than a man sometimes. I can do a lot of stuff that men can't even do and I am not that weak little princess that need protection anymore. But inside my heart I really wish when I am tired, someone would give his hand to me and say that don't worry, he will take care of me. So many times I cried on the street when I feel so stressed out.
At night when I feel cold I would ask myself where is that man that would notice I would actually kick my blanket off? I wish in the morning there would be breakfast and a love note on the table. I wish if my hair is wet someone will blow dry for me. I wish someone would say I am stupid and do things for me. I wish someone would say I am pretty even I am not wearing make up. I wish when I am sick, someone would hold my hands and tell me that he is beside me. If there is a guy like that in this world, I beleive I would never let him go.
After the tears came down from my eyes, I wish I can have a good sleep tonight. Tomorrow is another day. I know I can do it and I am a very tough person.
Who can help me? Who can save me?
You know sometimes I would hope something terrible happen to me, so I will see you again. I know that's really stupid. I don't know why when I am weak I always think of you, but at the same time I know the you I miss do not exist anymore. I don't know how long I will struggle with it. I know if anyone know I am like this, they would laugh. Who would beleive that I am actually so stupid and so weak? Sometimes I really want to thanks you for teaching me to be so strong, I think I am stronger than a man sometimes. I can do a lot of stuff that men can't even do and I am not that weak little princess that need protection anymore. But inside my heart I really wish when I am tired, someone would give his hand to me and say that don't worry, he will take care of me. So many times I cried on the street when I feel so stressed out.
At night when I feel cold I would ask myself where is that man that would notice I would actually kick my blanket off? I wish in the morning there would be breakfast and a love note on the table. I wish if my hair is wet someone will blow dry for me. I wish someone would say I am stupid and do things for me. I wish someone would say I am pretty even I am not wearing make up. I wish when I am sick, someone would hold my hands and tell me that he is beside me. If there is a guy like that in this world, I beleive I would never let him go.
After the tears came down from my eyes, I wish I can have a good sleep tonight. Tomorrow is another day. I know I can do it and I am a very tough person.
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