sake

Last nite had too much sake. Actually, I just studdenly really want to drink last nite. I am not extremely upset, but just a bit moody. I know I will easily get tipsy after drinking sake, but I just want to forget about everything. I just feel so stressed out and feel so confused of what I really want to do.

Last nite talked with a guy that understand me really well. I am suprised that how well he understand me and always able to give good advise to me. His personality is so similar to bi, but just that he is not as good as him and he is not him. Maybe that's the reason I am not together with him.

I think if not the sake, there is no way that I would say so much to him. He asked me a question which I asked myself for the past month. " Do I know what I really want to do?" . I think I have to clear that out first, but the answer is I don't know. At first I beleive I have already get over the past, but these few days I actually think of the past. I know no one would treat be better than bi and no one can replace him. I really don't know what I really want.

I think he is right, I don't have time to play the stupid try and error games. I should be sure my decision before I do something. I should give myself more time to think what is right and what is wrong. I know I am a very impatient person, I just don't want to wait or waste time. I just want to have yes or no, but I guess this time I should be sure what I want before I do any step.

Its good to have someone know me so well, to give me good advice, to care about me, to love me.

Oh well, need to back to stupid study....><

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Step foward or Step backward?

Couldn't really get the reading into my head last night. I am not sure if its the medicine, the dizzness, the heart broken feeling or whatever.

I guess it's better not to like a person, cuz it's not even something that make me happy. I don't want to play mind game and I don't want to be played. I am just very simple and direct. I started to question myself where is the old vivi? The person who used to have really really low self-control and very direct. I used to be the active person that would do the first step. I used to the be the person that can't wait for a moment and asked directly. I used to be a person that just want to answer. Why would I studdenly don't know what to do. Not sure I should step forward or step backward? Should I even try if I know its not going to work? I am tired of guess what another person is thinking, it takes too much energy and time. I wish everything would be just very very simple.

談戀愛

一個動人的女子就在眼前，對，有更進一步的可能性，但我可以放得很輕，變得重只是我一手造成。

其實, 愛只需要一份勇氣。就是那份願意去試愛的勇氣。沒有嘗試, 又怎麼能知道最後是什麼的結果呢? 愛情, 就是要有賭上一切的覺悟。 這才是有意義的。

愛得及時, 就算最後回報是零, 但起碼你嘗過愛情裡的酸甜苦辣。 當下一次你再遇到令你心悸的那個他/她時,你會更懂得珍惜和疼愛。

如期要畏懼它, 何必不放膽轟轟烈烈的愛一次?你又為什麼要害怕去愛


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Updates

ok, it's time to update now.

1/ Sick...cough cough
2/ Tired...not enought sleep again, cuz those stupid reading and cuz I couldn't concentrate on reading
3/ Too much fb and msn = very unproductive
4/ Missing someone who I shouldn't
5/ Don't get what guys are thinking
6/ Having a lot of good friends
7/ Really Really want to travel!!!

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