Today, still doing a lot of unpack. Open more and more boxes and trying to clear off the stuff. I thought this house is not the same, but the things I find out is still full of shadow. There are so many paper with his handwriting and still so many display figures that bought from him. Also, dry flowers, purfume and even a receipt.
There days I can't stop thinking. I don't know what I should do and really don't know if I should stay. I don't think I am fitting-in in HK, but as well I don't feel belong to Vancouver anymore. There few days I am just hiding at home doing house cleaning and unpack the boxes. Most of the time just spend with my mom or sleep. I haven't meet any of my friends yet and not sure how long I will be staying. But somehow I feel lonely. I feel I don't have much friends.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Monday, June 22, 2009
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Messy New Home
Finally back to my new home. I miss my bed so much, my comfy bed.
It werid to be back home, cause this is a new home. Everything is new. New home, new room, new setting, new tv, new kitchen...etc....feel not like my home anymore...but in there, there are no more old memory, no more shadow of anybody. I hope I can start a new life in here, well...still thinking of starting a new life in Vancouver.
It's a totally different world. The things and world happened yesterday is still in my brain. The busy, crowd, noisy, but surounded by friends and family's life is still with me in my mind. Sometimes it's really hard to choose and take the choice.
I don't know if I can have a new start or should I have a new start. Also, becuase of you I am worry if I can face it. I tell myself I am a brave gal now, I should able to face it, but actually I know I am still weak. I am scare to see anything about you......
P.S. Many things are missing in this home, I have a bad feeling about it. like my room is not my room anymore. where are the things??? Feel so sad......
It werid to be back home, cause this is a new home. Everything is new. New home, new room, new setting, new tv, new kitchen...etc....feel not like my home anymore...but in there, there are no more old memory, no more shadow of anybody. I hope I can start a new life in here, well...still thinking of starting a new life in Vancouver.
It's a totally different world. The things and world happened yesterday is still in my brain. The busy, crowd, noisy, but surounded by friends and family's life is still with me in my mind. Sometimes it's really hard to choose and take the choice.
I don't know if I can have a new start or should I have a new start. Also, becuase of you I am worry if I can face it. I tell myself I am a brave gal now, I should able to face it, but actually I know I am still weak. I am scare to see anything about you......
P.S. Many things are missing in this home, I have a bad feeling about it. like my room is not my room anymore. where are the things??? Feel so sad......
Monday, June 15, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Great!!!
My dad called me 10 minutes ago and told me that he got a customer there which was from SFU too. He asked me to speak with her on the phone and I was like what the heck?
She said: " you might know my brother, he is XXX"
I was like...My goodness...this is not happening to me....
I said: " I know who he is and I know who you are, you are EEE. I been to your place before in Vancouver"
She said: " I don't remeber you. What's your name?"
I said: " Vivian"
She said: " There are too many Vivian, which one?"
I said: "................er.........er........er........I was Bi's gf"
She said: " I don't remeber, maybe I will remeber after seeing you again"
Then she told my dad: "she really knows my brother"
I was thinking, what's going on??? Really such a small world?? Stop playing me!!!
So you want me to let go or what???
Today is Bi's birthday.
Well, in Hong Kong and two hours later in Vancouver time.
Bi and XXX are best friends.
Great!!!
She said: " you might know my brother, he is XXX"
I was like...My goodness...this is not happening to me....
I said: " I know who he is and I know who you are, you are EEE. I been to your place before in Vancouver"
She said: " I don't remeber you. What's your name?"
I said: " Vivian"
She said: " There are too many Vivian, which one?"
I said: "................er.........er........er........I was Bi's gf"
She said: " I don't remeber, maybe I will remeber after seeing you again"
Then she told my dad: "she really knows my brother"
I was thinking, what's going on??? Really such a small world?? Stop playing me!!!
So you want me to let go or what???
Today is Bi's birthday.
Well, in Hong Kong and two hours later in Vancouver time.
Bi and XXX are best friends.
Great!!!
你最念念不忘的人是誰?
最念念不忘的人是 : 失去了的戀人
你是一個失去以後就會覺得後悔的類型的人，所以你最念念不忘的人不是別人，是失去了的戀人。當你們分手後，你會因為失去而懊惱不已，如果是因為你自己的原因而導致分離，你就會一直記掛著他/她，卻忽略了在你身邊的人。你就是那種，分開後才知道自己多麼在乎他/她的人。
你是一個失去以後就會覺得後悔的類型的人，所以你最念念不忘的人不是別人，是失去了的戀人。當你們分手後，你會因為失去而懊惱不已，如果是因為你自己的原因而導致分離，你就會一直記掛著他/她，卻忽略了在你身邊的人。你就是那種，分開後才知道自己多麼在乎他/她的人。
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