Couldn't really get the reading into my head last night. I am not sure if its the medicine, the dizzness, the heart broken feeling or whatever.
I guess it's better not to like a person, cuz it's not even something that make me happy. I don't want to play mind game and I don't want to be played. I am just very simple and direct. I started to question myself where is the old vivi? The person who used to have really really low self-control and very direct. I used to be the active person that would do the first step. I used to the be the person that can't wait for a moment and asked directly. I used to be a person that just want to answer. Why would I studdenly don't know what to do. Not sure I should step forward or step backward? Should I even try if I know its not going to work? I am tired of guess what another person is thinking, it takes too much energy and time. I wish everything would be just very very simple.
