HIM

I had BBT with HIM and the others today. The feeling is a bit wierd. I don't know how to explain. Maybe I am still not use to being here ( Vancouver) again, maybe I am not use to see there is a girlfriend beside HIM yet, mayb cause I am still not sure if I should stay in Vancouver yet, maybe cuz we all changed.

Everything make the whole night different. I wouldn't say it's a very unhappy night, but it is a night that will make me think of many things. Seeing other going back to school or move to other position. Everyone is having different life and new life. And even one friend is planning to get a house and get marry soon. It just....how to say...

I don't know if I should still see HIM anymore. Actually, I still feel it is a bit unrespecting me to bring his girfriend out. I am not jealous or anything, but I just feel it is not possible for me to make friends with his girlfriend and I just don't know wat to say sometime. Should I pretend nothing had happened before? Think a lot about the past again. And thinking about ......again......