implies?

P said meet the same person two times in a week should imply something to me. Right time, right place, right person. I don't know what a coincidence it is. Sometimes when you think it's time to move on, that's it and fate just tell you that it's time for you to make decision again.

If that iimplying something. Than how about my dream??? Implying that I am thinking too much? In my dream I bump into you again at a bridge and you were with your gf holding hands. There were so many people on the bridge walking opposite direction. I was walking toward one way and you toward the other. You couldn't see me and I was seeing you guys from the back. Then I fainted out.

Second time seeing you were in the hosiptal. I just found out that I had cancer ( in my dream) and then I was talking with a kid. Then the emergency room came in a person and with her family and friends. You came in with your gf and was backing me. I turned around and look at the backs of you two. I saw a ring on your hand. It's funny that I can even tell it's a tiffany square shape ring. Then I fainted out again.

Actually I didn't purposely think of anything like this. I really don't know how I can come up with something like this in my dream and it's true. I guess I won't studdenly able to make up a story like this. Then what does that implying?

...

I didn't even remeber I wrote something like that last nite. Is it the real me? What really I were thinking last night?


Someone says...

If you love a man;
set him free;
if he belongs to you;
he is yours!

drunk

i am so fucking dunk now and I am missing u so much.

I wish you would be the person picking me up after and sleep with me right now..gosh....what's going on with me? I don't think we can be together and I am still thinking about u...what's going on...why u alway not there when I needed u???

Another move

I don't know what of feeling I have toward that person now. I don't know is love, hate, or even anything. I just feel so sad everything I think about the past. Why I have to meet him again. I think should be enough for me. The more I think, the more I should hate him, but I coudn't.

Finally, decide to pack the first drawn stuff to a box. It's about time, to do more and more, so I can forget more and more. Why should I think of the past anymore? Everyone moved on and having a new life. Including me.

Sally said I changed...I agree... but with a tradeoff.

路遙自然知馬力

而我實在覺得，被稱為甚麼都好，不是人家說你是便是，也不是有人批評你不是便不是，路遙自然知馬力，日久，人心亦會被可見的事實改變。

如果你不想放棄某些東西，你可以做的，就是不斷證明自己，在過程中以清晰的目標來修正自己的不足，你的路就是這樣走的了，途人要拍掌或喝倒采，也是路上風景的一部分。

有時候，事實不但能改變外界的想法，甚至連當事人也會有所啟發，或許，有些路，你走了一段時間，才發現自己不適合，這也不是甚麼奇異的事。

stranger

we started from strangers and then we were so close together and then we lost contact. Now we are strangers again. Even tho we are in the same room, we do not know each other and we don't even want to look at each other. Maybe it just me that can't take that feeling. I don't know if I still love you, but I know I don't know how to stand infront of you and pretend nothing had ever happened.

Anyways, it's good to see. At least you are alive and having fun. Life must go on no matter what right? Good luck to the ones that loved each other and become strangers again. I am sure u guys can move on.

over?

I thought I got over with it, but then it appeared again.

鋪路

有這樣一個故事：一個大好青年，兩年之內寫了七百多封情書給他心愛的女友，後來他的女友宣布要結婚了，新郎卻是──給她送信的郵差！有時候，你的努力恰恰成了別人的鋪路石！那位作者應該釋懷，愛情的感覺最神秘，即使是聖人，也是一出世就後悔至死亡！

Maybe the existence of me and you is just to pave our future for each other. I hope you are now living happily. Wish you all the best.

怎会如此

Funeral

Been to a funeral again. Seeing the crying wife and family and make me think of the meaning of life. Father said: " We come by ourself and also leaving by ourself " " We came from dust and turn to dust". Well, very meaningful. Life is really short sometimes and we just want to be happy.

It's werid for me being alone at home and having leftover now. I am not sure the meaning of life yet. but I hope I can find out soon.

Bad feelings

You know what, I had a bad feeling that last for one month already.

I just found out my frd pass away and then I think of you. I haven't contact him for 2 years and didn't even check out hif facebook and today I found out that. What made me feel worry is there were flying moths in my room first day I arrive to this new home and there were flying moths staying over in my room for couples of days. As the old chinese say flying moth means a pass away person is missing you and coming back as a flying moth to visit me. I am not sure why, but I have that bad feeling and i worry about you. Maybe it sounds stupid, but really I really worry about you.

I know it's a mistake to send you that SMS, but it's totally wierd that you didn't reply or didn't even scold at me or tell me not to find you forever. Are you still in Vancouver? Where are you? Are you......I am so scare to know or to find out......I rather you are happy right now, doesn't really matter you forgot about me. I hope you are happy and found a life of what you want.

I am too scare to find out what happening to you. what should I do??

Child

May god bess all the little child, I am missing them. =)