I don't know

Bi,

I really don't know how to be a good gf, how to be a good gal, how to be a good person.

I am so lost, I don't know what I am or what I am doing, am I still me??

I can't find myself anywhere, am I acting too much that I lost myself already??

I beleive if pretend to be happy so I can be happy, but how come everyone thinks I am happy, but I don't think so??