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Leaving soon
I am feeling so lost these days. Yesterday you were treating me so bad, so different from last week. Did something happened in the past week? Why you even treat a friend more polite and nicer than to me?
Did you do it in purpose or you really don't want to see me and spend time with me? If so, then why you came at the first place? It is because you worry I will break down again?
You know how sad I was when you were not facing me? and always put your back toward me? I know it just a short time, but I treasure every hug you give me, but why you just can't even do that when you were with me and have to give me the attitude that you really hate it and don't want to be with me when you are just right in front of me?
We had the long talk last night and I told you that my friend has depression and you said why people in vancouver have depression? Do you know it is not something we can control? We need a lot of love and support and it is not easy to change our way of thinking. I don't want to depress as well, I want my old self and be happy and have confidence too. But I just can't and why can you support me but dragging me down?
After five months you couldn't tell what my problems are? Or are you just ignoring them? Are you the same person that I met 9 years ago? You are not the same, where is your caring heart? You became so realistic and selfish. You used to be such a caring person and loving person. Where is your heart now?
I asked you what you think I changed and you said I am quiet and not fighting for the first place anymore. I know I am also not as happy ( or seemly say I am unhappy) and I don't have confidence. I think toward you I am too weak that I just want you to support and take care of me and hope there is a person I can trust. But I know you are not willing to be that person.
You are leaving soon and you know I am really upset about it....should we just stop there? Or is it just me that not willing to stop?
Did you do it in purpose or you really don't want to see me and spend time with me? If so, then why you came at the first place? It is because you worry I will break down again?
You know how sad I was when you were not facing me? and always put your back toward me? I know it just a short time, but I treasure every hug you give me, but why you just can't even do that when you were with me and have to give me the attitude that you really hate it and don't want to be with me when you are just right in front of me?
We had the long talk last night and I told you that my friend has depression and you said why people in vancouver have depression? Do you know it is not something we can control? We need a lot of love and support and it is not easy to change our way of thinking. I don't want to depress as well, I want my old self and be happy and have confidence too. But I just can't and why can you support me but dragging me down?
After five months you couldn't tell what my problems are? Or are you just ignoring them? Are you the same person that I met 9 years ago? You are not the same, where is your caring heart? You became so realistic and selfish. You used to be such a caring person and loving person. Where is your heart now?
I asked you what you think I changed and you said I am quiet and not fighting for the first place anymore. I know I am also not as happy ( or seemly say I am unhappy) and I don't have confidence. I think toward you I am too weak that I just want you to support and take care of me and hope there is a person I can trust. But I know you are not willing to be that person.
You are leaving soon and you know I am really upset about it....should we just stop there? Or is it just me that not willing to stop?
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